When I had to Give Up on my Only Goal
I almost had her.
Then, one day in 2012, when I was out with her, she pushed me away. I was so hurt by her actions that I left. I tried to hop a fence to my home while drunk and became seriously injured. I broke two bones in my ankle.
I was out in a cast for three months. She never came to visit me once during my injury.
I came to realize, I had spent at least six years of my life, being depressed, lost, and dependent on her. I couldn’t do anything with all my heart, because in the back of my mind, all I wanted was her. However, my injury showed me who my true friends were and who didn’t care about me at all.
Then, I realized, I had been wasting my life away. Trying to be with someone who didn’t even love me. It was time to give up.
So, I finally let her go.
I stopped living for her.
Did I regret giving up my goal? Quite frankly, it was the most liberating experience of my life.
I compiled all the data from the experiences of my life and learned the lessons that I never had time to process. In the process, I remembered my grandfather and how he raised me. A memory I buried deep, underneath layers of my subconscious mind.
I began to understand that I was designed to live in his image. I shed myself of my worldly needs and decided to live a life of love, a life of abundance, a life of inspiration.
My purpose here is no longer to be chasing people I can never have, who are unable to share mutual feelings of love. However, it is to do what my grandfather did when he was alive. I am here to spread my love, my experience, and my abundance, to inspire others to live their dreams.
No longer will I ever live a life to impress. No longer will I work for applause. No longer will I strive to make my presence noticed. Instead, I am here to live my life to express. I am here to work for a cause.
Maybe, one day, when I come to depart from this world, my absence will be felt.
Originally posted on Quora.
Leonard Kim now has another goal, to help cure the epidemic of poor communication on social media. The Etiquette of Social Media: How to Connect and Respond to Others in the World of Social Media.